Where I've been and moving forward
So I'm sitting here at my computer with nothing to do, and I figured that now would be as good a time as any to take a step back and look upon what my 2010 has been.
This has been an eventful year to say the least. Over the past year I've earned my Master's degree, fallen in love, had my heart broken, been taken to the very edge of sanity, and saved from said edge. My heart's been tested time and time again, and somehow it's still in one piece. Battered and bruised? Definitely. But it'll take a lot more to break me, especially the person I am today.
The changes I've seen in myself in retrospect are really something. I've matured quite a bit, done a lot of growing up. I'm more sure of myself and more in control of my emotions. I've learned what love means and what it can do to a person. I've learned to turn my patience into something positive and productive, rather than an excuse to hold back. Most importantly, I've learned to hope, and to trust, and trust completely. It's a feeling I'm still getting used to, but to be able to trust someone so completely like it's second nature
That all being said, the changes don't stop now. I've come this far, now it's time to evolve further and take myself to the next level. Someone very special to me once told me it's ok to be selfish and to fight for what you want. All my life I've been waiting, not sure of what my purpose is, not sure of who I am or where my heart lies. That's all going to change.
With school coming up, I'm going to show them what I'm truly capable of, the type of leader I am, an unstoppable force. I now know where my heart lies, who it belongs to, who I've been waiting for. It's not even so much a matter of what I want, but what I feel is right. I'll fight for my love, no matter who I have to go to, over, or through. And if it ends happily, in heartbreak, or even in death, it's still a fate infinitely better than being stuck waiting endlessly.
With the new year coming, and especially with the huge change coming in my life, I've got a fresh start, a blank slate, and I intend to take full advantage of it. I'll make friends and enemies. I'll love, hate, laugh, cry, contemplate, and rage. I'll compete with rivals, and I'll cooperate with colleagues. A fire has been lit inside me, and I'm ready to test the limits of my newfound freedom. Even though I plan on continuing my evolution and becoming a stronger person, I know that with the special people I now have in my life, that I won't betray who I fundamentally am. Instead, I'll only continue to get stronger.
As I'm typing this, I'm slightly trembling with anticipation. This new resolve will open a lot of doors for me. I just hope that I'm up to the task of being able to take full advantage. As for love, if things end up badly, at least it won't be for lack of effort. I'm already a foolish romantic, only now I have someone worth fighting for. Life is about to get interesting, and I'm buckling in for the ride.
Animus Invictus
This has been an eventful year to say the least. Over the past year I've earned my Master's degree, fallen in love, had my heart broken, been taken to the very edge of sanity, and saved from said edge. My heart's been tested time and time again, and somehow it's still in one piece. Battered and bruised? Definitely. But it'll take a lot more to break me, especially the person I am today.
The changes I've seen in myself in retrospect are really something. I've matured quite a bit, done a lot of growing up. I'm more sure of myself and more in control of my emotions. I've learned what love means and what it can do to a person. I've learned to turn my patience into something positive and productive, rather than an excuse to hold back. Most importantly, I've learned to hope, and to trust, and trust completely. It's a feeling I'm still getting used to, but to be able to trust someone so completely like it's second nature
That all being said, the changes don't stop now. I've come this far, now it's time to evolve further and take myself to the next level. Someone very special to me once told me it's ok to be selfish and to fight for what you want. All my life I've been waiting, not sure of what my purpose is, not sure of who I am or where my heart lies. That's all going to change.
With school coming up, I'm going to show them what I'm truly capable of, the type of leader I am, an unstoppable force. I now know where my heart lies, who it belongs to, who I've been waiting for. It's not even so much a matter of what I want, but what I feel is right. I'll fight for my love, no matter who I have to go to, over, or through. And if it ends happily, in heartbreak, or even in death, it's still a fate infinitely better than being stuck waiting endlessly.
With the new year coming, and especially with the huge change coming in my life, I've got a fresh start, a blank slate, and I intend to take full advantage of it. I'll make friends and enemies. I'll love, hate, laugh, cry, contemplate, and rage. I'll compete with rivals, and I'll cooperate with colleagues. A fire has been lit inside me, and I'm ready to test the limits of my newfound freedom. Even though I plan on continuing my evolution and becoming a stronger person, I know that with the special people I now have in my life, that I won't betray who I fundamentally am. Instead, I'll only continue to get stronger.
As I'm typing this, I'm slightly trembling with anticipation. This new resolve will open a lot of doors for me. I just hope that I'm up to the task of being able to take full advantage. As for love, if things end up badly, at least it won't be for lack of effort. I'm already a foolish romantic, only now I have someone worth fighting for. Life is about to get interesting, and I'm buckling in for the ride.
Animus Invictus
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